Once in a Blue Moon

Last night was the Blue Moon, as in once in a blue moon, and I dutifully wrote my hopes and wants on a bay leaf (kept it to three; they said don’t confuse the universe by asking for too much). I looked up at the moon, and lit that bay leaf from a white candle and hoped for wisdom, time, and wealth. I also tried to not burn myself as it crackled it’s way to the universe.

Wisdom. I’m smart. I know that. I see it in the eyes of those around me, and besides, I earn it. I read. I listen. I pay attention to what is happening and then I question it, and pull it apart, and wear myself out trying to understand. But I want to be wise as well. Following Frankl’s message; “Between the stimulus and response, there is a space. And in that space lies our freedom and power to choose our responses. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” I have had that in my thoughts for a long while, and I have come to learn that the space Frankl references, for me, is where wisdom lies. Learning when to say, what to say, and when to stop saying. Wisdom.

Time. As I’ve aged, I have come to realize that time is my most precious commodity; the thing I can’t earn, or buy, or count on - it’s out of my hands. Time to watch my fabulous Sarah grow and shine and live a life of joy, and struggle and purpose. And, of course, time to finally focus on what matters to me and what I leave behind in the world. Time to rise above the fear of the prying, sometimes unkind, eyes of others. That fear was a time waster for a lot of my life. But the rear view mirror is smaller than the windshield for a reason, so I need to put a lot of living in the time that is left to me. Time. ‘No time like the present.’ ‘Time’s a wasting.’

Wealth. I have not treated wealth respectfully. I haven’t had to. I always had it. But I want more of it now, not so I can buy a large house again (it took up so much of my time), but because it gives me freedom. Freedom to leave a person a $100 tip on a breakfast of eggs at the diner, whose day is changed in such a big way when I do it. So I can fund the projects that matter to me without regard of the cost - only focused on spending whatever it takes to enable it to succeed. Wealth.

Then I went to the water, where the moon was breathtakingly hanging over my small, beautiful town and I paid my respects. I read aloud what my friend Sue, who is much more spiritually evolved than me, sent me to read to the wind, the sea, and the sky.

“All that no longer supports my highest self is cleansed from my body right now. I release myself from any repetitive cycles or patterns that are preventing my growth. I release myself from any attitudes or beliefs that are keeping me stuck. I release myself from any heavy weight that is no longer mine to carry. I set the intention and know that it is done. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.”

“I cleanse and purify the past. I release all that no longer serves. The old is gone, and the past is just a wise memory. I bring myself forward now into the present moment, focusing on that which I wish to attract for my highest self and my brightest future.”

“I surround myself in love and light. A seal of protection forms around my body, mind, and soul. I am safe. I am loved. I am infinitely protected. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.”

I’m almost done. Lastly, I went home and showered in my outdoor shower, looking up at the moon, washing away what was before this moment, leaving room inside me for the renewal it brings for my hopes and wishes.

Then I went to sleep. Way past my bedtime. I figure the moon was very busy last night, processing so many human’s needs and hopes, so it’s ok, if this is ‘hocus pocus’, as a friend calls it. Doesn’t matter because I know I’m better for last night’s adventure and introspection.

I hope you saw the moon and noticed its beauty - and its power.